I keep having thoughts of suicide...?

I got really depressed when I was at university and eventually dropped out all together, which I regret to this day, though there was little I could do at the time. I would advise you to contilnue with the course you're on, it's something that will bring good employment opportunties. Even if you could switch to literature that would be a bad move: a literature course qualifies you to do nothing whereas a technical course like the one you're in could get you a good job in the IT or some related field. As for the suicidal ideation, that's not what you need to be living with. Use the student counselling service and see a doctor with a view to getting antidepressant medication. You need to make a serious enquiry about what happens if you do get so sick you need to take some time out from your course. Just find out where you stand. I'm sure there is some system or scheme where you could finish your degree if you DID need to take a semester off. I'm advising this because if you understand 100% where you stand you'll have less worry on your mind. You're uming you're trapped due to the financial aspects, but do you know absolutely this is the case? I hope you start feelilng better soon. As I say I made a real hash of university I was trying to use weed as an antidepressant and it just made me worse, I didn't bother going to any cles for weeks on end, skipped vital exams etc etc I just didn't care any more. I was in such a mess my dr gave me a medical note writing me off for an entire semester. Relaxation exercises and deep breathing exercises, that sort of thing can be really helpful. Talk to your friends about how you feel and see a counsellor. Good luck :-)