Confused.Why come here?The service writer I work with is a .?

She knows I have strong feelings for her and I am fighting them.We don't spend much time talking and she talks a lot more with the other guy's.They know more about her than I do.She has taken the time to interduse her better haf to them but has gon out of her way not to interduse me to her better haf.When she needs someone to stay late with her she calls on me. Even thow we would be alown.I do conduct my self as a gentlman.All thow I would just melt in her arms if she would just hug the stufing out of me.She maybe leaving for a new job soon and I fir she will not keep in contact with me when she do's, but she will keep intuch with the others.I don't know why I feel the need to keep in tuch and the need to meet her better haf.Maybe its becos the other's have met her and I havent.It cinda make's me feel like her mistres.My question? Why do's she conduct her self in this maner.